hi.

WHAT IS MY LIFE. lol sup peeps been awhile yah btw long post short(?) hidup gue gitu2 aja huhu menyedihkan ya kangen smp to death and shits lol. bye.

I'M A HIGH SCHOOLER! y'ay or n'ay?

it's kinda late but I started high school like less than 3 weeks ago dan yeah mos-nya seru blargh. had some mental breakdowns because of some shits yeah but getting better! gue dapet kelas paling ujung, XF! and just so you know, that class RAD! yeah not as rad as 7D, 8E, 9E but it's ok. haha that's what's up! for high school, gue berharap bisa lebih baik, rajin, berprestasi haha. I met a lot of people and some of them are my friends on facebook and twitter so it's like hm. and there this girl that loves jakarta-life as much as i do and we're friends and then these two best friends who have awesome taste in music and we're gonna be good friends lol and they're funny and rad and "anti-social" lol.
but, di sekolah ini sering deh ditanyain prestasi dan I don't have any brilliant achievement so yeah feels like I'm the dumbest kid on the class but whatever I'll try in hs.
and one more thing, SENIORS. if I haven't mention this before, seniors freaks the fuck out of me since 10.000 B.C #halah #salah tapi beneran deh dari kecil paling takut kalo gak sama setan ya seniors! huft... and the worse is my face is more annoying when I don't put any smile on it so if I see any senior I'll just look down and AVOID, AVOID AND AVOID. yes, i know right, loser. huhuhu.

done here. byebye.

FRESHMAN YEAR! WOO-FUCKING-HOO!

WEEKEND

yap jadi weekend kemaren gue ke semarang terus nginep di hotel bagus for free itu jarang banget ya iya gue cinta gratisan but im fokin expensive terus ya gitu wifi hotel cepet parah terus sekarang balik ke shitty internet connection huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuuhhhuu terus balik lagi kesini huhu.

I FUCKING HATE YOU.

HAHA INTERESTING HOW A PERSON THAT USED TO BE IN YOUR HEAD ALL THE FUCKING TIME COULD BECOME SOMEONE YOU REALLY WANT TO THROW SOME PUNCHES(WITH SOMETHING LIKE SCISSOR, CUTTER, MOWER, ETC.) AT.

I FUCKING WONDER, HOW MANY GIRLS HAS GOT INTO ALL YOUR BULLSHITS?
I FUCKING REGRET THAT I'VE EVER KNOW YOU, THAT WE'VE TALKED, AND ALL MY PRECIOUS TIMES THAT I'VE WASTED ON YOU.
I'M REGRETTING ALL THE CONVOS WE HAD AND THIS WHOLE TIME THAT I'VE BEEN FOOLED BY YOUR FUCKING BULLSHITS.

DIE YOU STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLE!
YOU FUCKING JERK.

high school?

2.06.12

okay. I don't know where to start.
today was the announcement and the graduation as well, idk mungkin sekolah gue gak mau repot kali haha jadi digabung gitu satu hari.
well, yeah I made it.
I didn't get into any top ten lol
but it's really nice to see my parents and family proud of me.

tbh i don't really care about this whole thing since I already got a table in high school.
I tried to be like hmm thinking about it the night before but I just don't care, and today I was just like happy 'cause I graduated just for a sec and then I felt normal. I got good grades, thank God, and again was just excited for a moment and then nothing.

and am so proud and happy for my friends, all of them (expect the ones who cheated (re: bought leak answers))

I was so ugly today huhu everyone was so pretty and handsome and neat and.

after the whole graduation stuff, went to cipinang, took a nap and then picked up my brother and went home (oh yeah I had BK too, yum) we talked about my grades, society, Jakarta-Cibubur and shits.

oh and we had seafood for dinner, one of the best.
on the way to dinner, nyokap gue lagi buka kaca mobil untuk buang sesuatu dan bokap dengan sangat tidak berdosa nutup kacanya, yep, nyokap gue kejepit and you know I was the only one who saw her face and just laugh my freakin' ass off.

sebenernya, sayang banget nem gue gak kepake, yah gue udah dapet sekolah and I worked hard for UN dan sebenernya gue bisa masuk negri Jakarta, but how? already set this way. haha I decide it too fast and now it's too late, peeps. can't go back.

I'm thinking worrying about my highschool. yeah. why? dunno, it's hard, complicated. haha.
I shouldn't worry this much.

 and tomorrow my nan is leaving :( gonna miss her so much!

SHITS.

feeling so weird lately because of some stuff that have been struggling in my mind for awhile and actually it's more like weak, I think and worry too much it's not good and need to tell someone so Wy said I should talk to my bam so i did and it didn't work out haha not because he didn't listen to me or else but idk how to write it down, my feeling. but Wystan did listen to me and made me feel much much better haha so grateful I have a friend like him.

sobbing for like an hour, licking my snots and uhm typing.
he listens more and helps more than I do to him and that's sucks 'cause he is always there and he listens and it's good because I can feel much better but it's sucks because I can't do the same so THANK YOU SO MUCH, WYSTAN!

ANIN'S BIRTHDAY

happy birthday anin!

had a good good time tonight and yeah free dinner!

thanks for everysingleone especially anin and TIKA!

too tired to tell you the shits so yeah and uhm so many photos tonight will upload later yeah okay have a good night, people.

Playlist.

well, as you know I have this sleeping trouble (see last post) and I made a playlist which I've been playing shuffle and on repeat like since an hour ago because I'm bored of my old sleep playlist so here you go,

FUCK
- Blue Jeans by Lana Del Rey
- B.U.A by S.
- Creep by Radiohead
- EOH by BC.
- Fake Plastic Trees (acoustic version) by Radiohead
- Pumped Up Kicks by Foster The People
- HCYSSMS by BBC.
- IBDTRY by AG.
- OYSM by Y.
- S by TGN.
- S by TB.
- TT by A.
- 15F,C by BMTH

XO.

Creep by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You’re so fucking special
But I ‘m a creep
I ‘m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here

I don’t care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I’m not around
You’re so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here

She’s running out again
She’s running out
She run, run, run run
Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don’t belong here
I don’t belong here.


will always be one of my favorite song.

LIFE IS GOOD, sometimes.

okay I don't know where to start. hm, I had a pretty good day, again.

so, dad woke me up at 6.30 and we went out for a walk like usual and then we went to JKT to pick my mom and bro.
sebelumnya gue nemenin bokap spooring dulu, took a long time but it's okay I just spent my time sitting in the waiting room watching a sleeping sir with his mouth wide open (I cannot not to laugh) and shits.

after that, straight to nan's house and shits.
rode around Kota Jakarta, no heavy traffic jam.

me, dad, mom and brother went to Theresia to have some meals, turned out everything is closed so I had meatball noodle and a super yummy pure orange juice. mom accidentally met her old friend Mr. Budi, btw.
I told dad to go to BLOK S and we did, I ate sate and podeng ice, again. it so yummy.
after that, we went to PS. we were looking for Queen's greatest hits cd, too bad they don't have one, tokonya punya banyak banget album Queen tapi itu satuan dan ribet & they ran out of AVA's cd too, fu.
eventually dad bought Led Zepplin & Kenny G's albums.

we met Om Mahesa, my dad's friend from his autoclub or something.
we bought some breads and walked around, there's so many pretty people in the mall they kinda intimidated me haha.

we had a little bit of nostalgia on the road, oh how we miss those days.

we dropped bro at nan's house and went back home.

we're not going out together as much as we used to, so that's why I post this haha.
well, kalaupun kita pergi ber-4 pasti salah satu ada yang bad mood and it's kinda ruin the moment, but not today! no dull face, no bad mood. we were all laughing, chatting, joking around and be happy. everyone was having a good time today.

Thank God, life is good. sometimes.


p.s: my baby is being so nice tonight, here's some photos of me and my baby!

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